Splitting the DNA (Day 10 of Truth)
The following Post is for accomplishing Creative Challenge called 30 Days of Truth, given by Kellie Elmore. It is a unique exercise in self exploration and learning to be honest with yourself… andthatultimately leads to happiness.
Social Network. I won’t say that it is everything because even I do have a personal life apart from multiple digital screens. 😛 But it meant a lot for me once, when I was feeling alone. And so, it does sometimes now. Okay !! I’m getting bit Facebook-alcoholic, but it is a Fact.
Well the bottom line is, I love and enjoy interacting with people online. These are the guys, whom I’ve never met personally, but I would probably be interested to have a chit-chat with them for a long time. I preferably add or send friend request to those, who have similar interests like I do as this is the way you possibly could interact with strangers in the Internet. The reason for being sometimes extrovert in such place is simple. Let’s talks about from this perspective. We all are busy and stressed with our lives. Sometimes even we do really need friends (including the net buddies) to whom we could share our thoughts and we both understand each other feelings. Apart from my over 700 friends in Facebook and 300 Friends in Orkut, I still do have some good long time net buddies to whom I interact most of the times (even daily sometimes). That’s the only reason which can’t make me to resist myself coming online. Of course, I do have a self control and balance which often makes to avoid such things during important tasks.
Some Smartass people around me always think that I am totally free (in Hindi what we call, VELLA) every time and don’t have a life apart from Social-Networking. Well, it’s their lame perception. If they don’t know about time management and productive use of such sites, then it’s not my fault to explain these cunts again and again. Honestly, I really don’t give a fuck about them.
Anyways, moving back to the topic. It was somewhere 3 years ago (to be exact, it was about November 2008). I met this girl online in Orkut. Her net name was ‘Fallen Devil’ (not interested to mention that bitch’s real name 😛 and you will get the reason too .. Don’t worry). She was a friend of my long time net friend ‘Akshay’from Mumbai, India (I named him because he’s still a good friend of mine :)). I saw her profile and found it really interesting. There were many similarities between us like – Favorite Rock Bands, Favorite Music, Favorite shows, Favorite Cartoons etc. Like I’ve said above about my way of social interacting – adding mostly my kinda guys. So therefore, I sent her a friend request and she accepted within hours. After acceptance, she personally posted on my scrapbook asking about myself. I gave her a reply ASAP and asked her the same.
And this is how our chatting started. 🙂
Within few more fast questions and answers, I further got to know about her more and so do she got to know more about me. Even some interesting things I got to know about her that she stays in NOIDA (kinda neighbor city from my city, Delhi), loves LINKIN PARK and a great fan of Mike Shinoda (just like me .. but not had a crush on him :P) and the strange part : She was just 14 (a typical school kid). Well, That was weird for me at the first moment. But yeah it got over with it, as I realized that kids these days are more advanced and even more interested to interact in social networking, than us who just came to know that such things even exist.
Well usually had conversation (I mean seriously, a hell lot of chit-chat) on many topics. Of course, everything is not perfect at all. Even we still had some dissimilarities like – I like watching Indian Comedy and Daily Soap on Television, while Teen Drama Shows are her most favorites. But still there was some respect between us despite a lil bit of. Like I used to say her, there was some similarity in our DNAs, there was some kinda understanding between us.
We used to chat for hours, share some music links and write some testimonials to each other. Maybe we were more than friends .. not BF/GF relationship shit .. siblings I would say. And sooner, we exchanged our contact number as we were eager to talk to each other. I remember the moment she rang me up for the first time right after I gave my contact number, I got bit terrified like – what to say, how to talk and all. It was damn anxious for me and i think it was that so for her also. Now, our chat went online as well as offline. She used to call me mostly. So Lucky me !! 😛
But this ain’t a happy ending. Soon, the tables turned and it was really painful. There was something about her, which I was ignoring first but then I got sick from that shit later. Apart from being an extrovert teenage, she is a typical Brat. The problem of her was that she brags so much about herself and her vanities. Sometimes she even faked about herself a lot of times. I remember her Orkut profile where she proclaimed that she’s the biggest Linkin Park fan and even she used to ask me many times, which was really annoying. Highly obsessed with her likes but can’t avoid the criticizers. I used to ignore such bullshits from her as whatever she does holding up with that attitude, was kinda immature and would need time to grow up and learn on her own.
However as a friend, I still advised her whenever she blogs such juvenile thoughts. But nothing went through her head and even she backfired me calling me I’m talking some kinda old guy. This really proved that she even doesn’t respect to her elder’s advise. Even she apologized for her attitude in front of me. But it was useless as she never learned from her mistakes and doing such shits again and again.
It was still OK as I later, tried to avoid asking about her lifestyle and thoughts. If she pretends to be matured, then she must be out her own ass. From then onward, I hardly picked up her call and replied to her messages, to make her realize about her own actions that hurt me once. I thought it was working as it seemed to me for while. But sooner, I was proved wrong by her.
One day, I found that she had a fight with my sister on Orkut. Both were ranting each other with hate speech. I really got angry as she started the battle for no reason. She was jealous with my sister. Don’t know why she was? But her words told the whole story. It was over the limit and I was forced to jump into this verbal battle. Not for taking anyone’s side, but to stop his hullabaloo of no reason. But she never grown up from her own mistakes and her own actions has almost ended our 10 month long net friendship, in the end of August 2009. I’d told about this incident to our mutual friends, asking their opinions. They somehow favored me, but still advised me to maintain the friendship and spare her immature actions. But I didn’t change my decision. If the bitch can’t give us respect, then it’s better she get her ass out of my way.
It had passed over two years and none of us interacted to each other. But one day, a friend request notification in my Facebook Wall made me stunned that moment. It was she who came back out of nowhere. I was thinking about to block her from my account. But later I thought to accept her request as I’ve already moved one from that incident and buried the hatchet, with a hope that she also grew up from her past juvenile habits. There might be still some matching DNA left in ourselves, which might make us to talk back again. But still just in case Deja-Vu happens, I’d make sure to interacted with her not that much openly which I used to do. However now, she’s 17, a young photography aspirant. Maybe I could expect some maturity from her.
So as soon I accepted her request, she sent me a message, “It’s really been a long time huh ??”. And in a taunting manner, I replied, “Yeah !! As if it is some kinda reunion”.
And this is how, out chat became so rough and so cold.
Even after that first (a little rough though) conversation, we’ve hardly interacted online as we both were busy in our lives. There were some limited topics like – current music choice, Grammy awards, Hollywood movies etc. which made us to talk if we are luckily online and interested to talk. However, within limited chat I thought one that we still have those similarities and still we appreciate that. But this time, I don’t want to know more and talk to her offline. I kept my privacy and she kept hers. It seemed that everything was going OK!
But seriously, such brats like her never get a life. They’ll keep on bragging about her overpriced things, which seriously I felt annoying though I don’t a damn. They all are obsessed with their materialistic lifestyle and won’t never be able to understand other’s way of living. And the day came again, when she interfered in our matters.
Again she fought in my elder sister’s blog. In the lame name of criticism, she posted a hate speech comment in response to my sister’s blog post. She was in a rage as her ranted words told everything about her jealously. As a payback, my sister replied her hate mail. If she can raise a weapon and declare a war, then my sister has a right to drop a nuke on her ass to stop this bullshit. Even I sent her message in Facebook asking for an explanation of her actions. But seriously, she became a cunt. She blamed my sister for not taking her comments in a sporting way. Again her ranting words tells the same ole story that she can’t stand with other even if she’s dealing with the sister of her true friend. But like I’d said in the beginning, the bitch never grown up from her mistakes. What else can I say ? The End is here, It’s Crystal Clear.
Reinventing memories of my past, I remember when everything was really good between us. We used to have fun when we were good friends. Something memorable moments probably we both have shared with each other. But I soon realized that virtual relationships hardly remains for real. It doesn’t stays long. And it is all due her attitude which forced to bring our longtime friendship to such an end that we would never gonna meet together again. She thinks that she knows everything. But bitch please!! She really didn’t knew a shit of our friendship.
Now all I wanna say something in the end, with these few Lines.
all these shits of
with that familiar
taste of pain,
past memories which
now I regret
to even happen,
our DNA of friendship
has been splitted
forever in vain.
Thanks for my memories, Bitch !!
This entry was posted on November 28, 2012 by AshBardhan. It was filed under 30 Days of Truth, Creative Challenges and was tagged with Bitch, Braggers, Brats, facebook, Fallen Devil, Friends, immature, Kat Shinoda, Kids, Life, LP, Metal, Mike Shinoda, Mumbai, Noida, orkut, Skank, Slut, Social network, Social network service, Teen, Wannabes, Whore.