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My Silly Shitty Hovering Mind .. From Darkness To Sunshine


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Ain’t dreaming about
any moment or opportunity
to come and chase for,
Ain’t running towards
success and achievements
to brag myself more.
Even not begging for
some fame, priviledge,
money and blessings to pour,
And really, Don’t wanna
keep on dealing with
these Shits like a moron.

Maybe .. I’ve fallen
into the darkness,
Maybe .. I’m in the
centre of cynicists,
Maybe .. I feel like
an ”Indian Nigga”
who’s ignored sometimes
and even left behind.
or even, Maybe I’m
simply just another victim
of a Shithole Politics.

Despite of all
the Omens of my Life,
Let’s keep them
apart for a while,
Jumping out from
my pity graveyard,
Cutting down the tension
with a Sharp Knife,
as There does exists
my Time to “Shine”.

Just keep learning
from my past li’l mistakes
and moving on further miles long.
Ignore the Bullshit trash-talking
and keeping mind and soul Strong.
Just a Lonewolf
in this Dark Jungle
Dwelling a New Cult
against the Mean Cunts,
Raising Hell with
some Raw Attitude
Making an Optimistic Ego
more damn Blunt.

Someday I will
get what I wanted,
Someday I will
live on my dreams,
Someday I will
drive to the success,
Someday I will
travel across the seas,
Someday I will,
really grow up Damn BIG
Someday I will,
stop taking other’s Shit
Someday I will
get some God Damn reasons
to get rid all of my grieves.
Someday I will
be that one what
I’ve promised to anybody.
And This is the way how,
Someday I will
become a MAN of somebody
from a KID of nobody.

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This Poetry is a part of  Thursday Poets Rally Week 64 by Jingle

Thursday Poets Rally Week 64

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All That I Want (Day 5 Of Truth)



The following Post is for accomplishing Creative Challenge called 30 Days of Truth, given by Kellie Elmore. It is a unique exercise in self exploration and learning to be honest with yourself… and that ultimately leads to happiness.

30 Days of Truth

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Everybody has certain ambitions and desires to become what they want. They keep on working hard for making their wish true. Even I have certain list of things that I want to be and hopefully I would become lately.

Here they are :-

1. Computer Programmer

Primarily and also on the basis of my major field of interest. I like to Coding a lot in certain Programming Languages (but most frequently in C/C++, as it reminds my ole school days). Since I’ve laid interest on this field, I just get with it day and night, focusing on certain concepts, applying some algorithms and solving’em with some presence of mind. It truly requires some Coding Skills and an approaching view to solve any kind of problem. It even becomes mind-boggling and damn irritating when get stuck in the middle with any problem, trying to figure out the bug (or error), for hours, days or even Weeks. But still, I like this. 😉

Ya indeed, I would like to go on further, learn certain new languages, new algorithms and even new compliers, to learn something NEW and getting updated with latest technology in the market. I am on my way. Moreover, It would be for my living in future.

 

2. Artist

I was truly passionate about Drawing before entering into Programming, since childhood. Drawn a lot of art creations not only these days, but also in the past School days. I really love sketching a lot and like to draw sketches of posters, cartoons and many still objects nearby.  But not so good in Painting, as I’ve lost those painting skills when I left my paint brush during my High School Days. But still, I would really like to lay emphasis on that piece of work as well. Moreover, I’m very glad to some of my college seniors and some of blog-mates who are indeed The Masters in Fine Arts, and from whom you’ll get to learn something NEW every time.

Well, Y’all have even seen all my creations so far in my blog and appreciated many of them as well. It would be increasing more and more in future with some expertise and perfection. Hopefully, I would become like Professional Artists in future.

 

3. Computer Animator and Gaming

Well though it’s a mixture of the above two, but still describing it on another category. It may be more biased to Programming, but an Artistic Vision is also required whenever you’re a creating some character. I’ve just made a simple Snake Game in C/C++ Language back in December last year. Though it was already made by many brilliant programmers across the World, even in more better way and also, C/C++ Games are now outdated these days. But my purpose of making this Game was to utilize all the coding skills and artistic approach learnt so far. I would surely like to improve upon by learning some New Programming Languages like – JAVA, C#, .NET, PHP and also some Game Source Engines like Allegro and OpenGL.

Since I’m exploring and updating myself in both – Programming and Arts,  I am even going along with Computer Animation and Gaming as well.

 

4. Mimicry Artist and Radio Jockey

Just for FUN though , but seems like It has now become something that I would like to do more and more. Mimicry / Voice Impersonating over 50 artists and certain 100 Cartoon characters. I’ve performed that thing quite lot, in front of my friends, class-mates and even a crowd of around 1000 during my College Freshers Party. From limited people to a Mob, This n00b has raised HELL in the town. 😛

But I’m not a regular performer, as obviously It not only would affect my voice, but also there won’t be something NEW to show to the people, and eventually, making my act completely BORING. So Therefore, I just take break for a while, writing some new scripts to entertain people. That’s my way, To Be Happy and Making Others Happy. 😉

Well after recognizing my talent very well, some good friends of mine recommended to try for Radio Jockey (RJ) as profession. Even I’ve tried my level best to become a RJ in my College Radio Channel – Radio NSIT, but failed to get selection. No Regrets at all. But ya !! I would like to be a RJ in some other Radio Station when I really push myself forward more in this talent and acquire more confidence to be good enough for a RJ.

 

5. Photographer

It used to be my Time-Pass Hobby in earlier days.  After clicking many pictures either with Mobile Camera, or Digital Camera, of whatever I see nearby, I’ve discovered that I’m doing that free-time work quite well.  Even some people liked my pictures and also appreciated the fact that I’m Good in Photography. So whenever I get time for a while, I just click some nice pictures of my surroundings many time until I am satisfied.

But I know, not only use of Professional Photography Cameras,  but also a Photogenic Vision is also required to become an Expert in this particular field. Hopefully, this piece of Time-Pass Hobby might become a Big-Time Profession in future. You just never know. 😉

 

6. Poet

Basically, I like to express my feelings carved in some nice words. Like Arts, even Poetry is my childhood passion.  I used to pen down my thoughts in a poem with some rhymes as well. Now, Even trying to use some phrases, metaphors and even some other forms of Poetries like – Haikus (which I’ve done all this February 8)), would make my poetry even more expressive and graceful.

After blogging for around 9 months, I’ve got to see many Professional Poet Bloggers some, from whom you’ll get to learn more and more. They eventually become yourMentorin this field as their expertise and experience means a lot to us.

 

There are more brilliant people in my above field of interests mentioned so far. I’m glad to such people in my Life. Some of them are very helpful, who would let others’ to and promote their particular field of interest. While some of them are Egoistic, who won’t help anyone to grow as they like to be sole surviving master of their field and probably would take out those who don’t match with their so-called level. But somehow, you get to learn something them.

 

However, above from all those desires which I’ve discussed so far. Before I become a Computer Programmer, an Artist, a Computer Animator, a RJ , I would like to be a Good Human at First.  Like a Good Brother, who would try to protect his fellow beings from problems. Like a Good Friend, who would retain his friendship forever. Like a Human Being, who would promote. For being a good human, you ought to be Kind, Matured, Responsible, Adamant and Peaceful.

But ya, after living in and experiencing from The Real World, you oughta be Smart and bit Diplomatic as well. 😉  8)

Life is full of unpredictable obstacles. I dunno and won’t get to know earlier of what I would become either one or many of them, in future. I’m just focusing on my dedication towards my desired interests and thinking of the Current, not much about the Future. And about my future and career, Life would notify me that sooner. Fingers Crossed !!!  😉 😀

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30 Days of Truth

The above Post was for accomplishing Creative Challenge called 30 Days of Truth, given by Kellie Elmore. It is a unique exercise in self exploration and learning to be honest with yourself…


A DREAM Turning Into A NIGHTMARE


Heyy Guys !! Wassup ?? 😉 8)

Man !! Just a weird shitty thing happened with me this Thursday morning. Well Actually, I had a normal DREAM last midnight, which unfortunately transformed into a damn fucking NIGHTMARE 😛

Heyy !! I know It’s kinda STUPID SHIT I’m expressing today.
Still, I’m gonna write few lines what just happened on Yesterday.

In my DREAM, It was simply a Beautiful and Pleasant Day like normally happens. We, me and my Elder Sis, were going to some place on our car. I just stopped the Car on the Roadside to have a Cold Drink. So I let my Sis to buy for us. She bought LIMCA instead of MONTAIN DEW. I shouted on her why she did so. And so, we both started quarreling inside the Car. Suddenly, A Truck completely lost with Balance, approached towards us and blew horn so many times. But since we both were too busy in our argument, we didn’t even noticed the HORN. As a result, It was Too Late to realize as The Truck had a COLLOIDAL CRASH with our Car and we met with a FATAL ACCIDENT. Within few moments everything appeared RED in front of my eyes and I almost JUMPED literally from my Bed. Then, later I realized that I was dreaming a NIGHTMARE.

I really dunno that we both either survived or died in my dream, and I don’t even wanna further know the next about it. All I know the FACT that, it just delivered me a horrible, terrible and terrifying IMPACT in my mind for few moments.

I know it sometimes happens as it’s just a DREAM not the REALITY. But Still, I researched on it through many websites. I’ve got some necessary info. regarding the topic, which now I’m gonna share with Y’all at here right now. 8)

Well Basically, A ” NIGHTMARE “ is just a dream that can cause a strong negative emotional response from the sleeper, typically fear and/or horror. The DREAM may contain situations of danger, discomfort, psychological or physical terror. Sufferers usually awaken in a state of distress and may be unable to return to sleep for a prolonged period of time.

Moreover in Scientific terms, A ” NIGHTMARE “ is a dream which causes one to wake up in the middle of the sleep cycle and experience a negative emotion, such as fear. This type of event occurs on average once per month. Fearfulness in waking life is correlated with the incidence of nightmares.

FEAR during and even after the NIGHTMARE

It has been proven by Science that almost everyone has experienced one or more dreams that contain anxiety or outright fear. For some, unpleasant dreams or nightmares recur repeatedly; for others, the content may change while the theme remains the same, such as scenes of falling, or of being pursued or attacked, late or unprepared for a presentation or an exam, stuck in slow motion, unable to move or scream, to name a few common themes. This type of experience, when unpleasant, is usually associated with lack of progress by the dreamer to recognize and solve related conflicts in life. It even sometimes sends you a message on upcoming problem to be faced in FUTURE. :O

Well after getting some knowledge about NIGHTMARES, this reminds me the INCEPTION movie. You get KILLED somehow in your Dream, immediately you get KICKED from there either to the reality or even to a Dream of Lower-Level.

Well, like I mentioned in my Dream where I met with an accident (a KICK from my Dream to Reality), which made me to jump out from my Bed, making me terrified for a while. It’s nothing but simply a Psychological Impact on a person, where he/she suddenly reacts on something that he/she were never expecting (even if they are “Dreaming” :P)

Ohh Man, Such Kinda INCEPTIONs really happens in real life. 😉 😛

Duhh … It doesn’t happen occasionally, not even regularly. It just happens suddenly out-of-nowhere. It’s very very very inevitable, unpredictable and unexpecting.

PS:- After reading this POST, Don’t even think that I’m weirdo and retarded kinda guy.
It’s just my own perception of what I felt currently. Simply just the way I am. 😉
Moreover, Please Don’t DENY with the FACT that It doesn’t happens with Y’all.
Just Embrace It n00bs 😛